lupusyogame

Today I woke up at 12. Not so bad considering it's Saturday, but I have been sleeping since 12 yesterday because I had a small Lupus flare and needed to rest. Actually I know the world is is doing what the world does but Im not a part of it. Life is passing by and I sleep or I remember and mourn what I did and lived before I was diagnosed. Every day I say ok today is the first day of the rest of my life...but it doesn't work. I wish I had a schedule like I used to have (and complained about) because it's important to have something to do, someone to love, and somewhere to go. Since I was diagnosed with lupus all 3 disappeared...for ever. Now if I don't make up things to do my only activity is Yoga and carpool...sometimes. My life before was something like this... I entertained Presidents, Senators, I raised more money for a Senator than anyone in the countryI produced 15 fitness videos, owned a yoga studio, was married and lived a princess life, had 4 beautiful children, friends... a lot of friends and well,,, everything that went with that. These years I have been plagued with Lupus flares many of them especially since April and I'm trying to break that cycle...I think I have. In my next blog I will talk about my lupus, my yoga,my family and the impact on them and how I fell from the top of the world.